From the Lioness' Den...

Happy Hump Day

In MY world it's Hump Day today. And tomorrow is Friday. Thursday we leave for Denver to partake in my sister's wedding festivities. She's a bit wound up to say the least. I got a call from her yesterday and I think she talked nonstop for a full 2 minutes before she stopped to take a breath and gave me a chance to say anything. That's OK, prewedding excitedness is to be expected. She did tell both me and my other sister that she did her part to make sure we have a good time at the reception and paid the $$$$ bar bill. I told her I would do my part to see that she got her money's worth.   

Shelby played softball for the first time this season last night. The team was in a tournament last weekend but the coaches told me that since she didn't start with the team right away she probably wouldn't play in the tourney. That's fine w/me, no driving an hour & 1/2 away, blah, blah, blah. At the same time, it wasn't Shelby's fault she didn't start the season with the team. I had signed her up for a different team that ended up not having enough girls signed up. Two weeks after the start of practice, the program director got ahold of me and told me about there not being enough girls but the one team did have 2 spots left and the coach wanted Shelby for one of them. So, whatever. She did play last night - she came off the bench in the first game, got walked and made it all the way in and the team ended up winning 22-1. The 2nd game she started, got up to bat twice. She went down swingin' the first time and walked the 2nd. She ended up getting tagged out in a heartstopping (mine anyway - those other 2 girls were bigger than she is) slide trying to steal home. They won this one too, 12-7.

The xh, being the superdad (she said, very sarcastically) that he is came to the game. He had called me at work earlier in the day to find out what we were doing last night (duh - I gave him a copy of the ball game schedule) and said his infamous "I need to talk to you." Christ. It doesn't matter how good a day I'm having or how good a mood I'm in, those six words are enough to irritate me and quite possibly piss me off if I'm headed in that direction anyway. He wanted to talk to me about letting him stay on my couch while he finds someplace to live because he can't afford the apartment he has and he has to be out by the end of the month. Before the words even finished coming out of his mouth, I was telling him NO. Not only no, but hell no.Then I went a step further and told him I couldn't believe he had the nerve to ask me that. "What part of D-I-V-O-R-C-E-D don't you get?!?!"  I picked up my chair and cooler and moved up to sit with a group of moms watching the game.

Gah! Every time he pulls something like that, it not only reaffirms my decision to dump his ass in the first place, it further convinces me that I do not want to get into another "relationship" right now. I am just not ready to invest emotionally in one right now. That does not mean that I am not enjoying the little "fling" I seem to be starting.  I think I feel safe with that because both of us have said that it's just sex. Nothing more, no strings attached, no expectations. Just fuckbuddies. I can handle that.

(oh, and PS-yes, I am being discreet and selective about when I get together with the buddy. If Shelby's around, no go. It only happens when she's away from me spending the night w/friends or something like that.)

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11:56 AM, May. 23, 2006 .. Posted by Bruinsmama

friends with benefits, a beautiful thing......

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2:28 PM, May. 23, 2006 .. Posted by SilverMonarch

Good for you! Sometimes you need a good stress release, and a good.... um.... well you know, is the best way to acclomplish that. At least in my book. :)

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4:44 AM, May. 24, 2006 .. Posted by oddkids

can be so STUPID Xspecially the ex-husbands.. Way to try to take advantage Nice real Nice.